I went to see a therapist today, as there is no way in Hell I would be able to get through this time without professional help. My story must have had some heft - my trained professional got teary-eyed. I knew then that she was the gal for me. I will use my 3 free 'employee assistance' visits and take it from there.
I showed her a photo of Julian and Mara so she could put real faces to the story. I showed her one of Julian's drawings from 2 nights ago. She was very intrigued. She also is focuses on adolescent psychology, so I was eagerly awaiting her thoughts on this drawing. I asked Julian who was who after he drew it and this was his reply [ Moving from R to L ]
- on far right - baby Mara all sprawled out, all orange
- next right - Stacey with huge hair, all orange
- middle - Julian orange body, blue arms
- left - John smaller, blue body, blue arms
I found it interesting that Julian's arms are blue (but his body is orange like Mara and I). John is all blue. Are they just colors and the happened chance he picked up the blue pen just in time to draw his arms and his Dad? She thought not. She might be right. Does my son feel torn between two new worlds? I venture to say yes and we have begun to gently approach the subject of Mom and Dad having two different homes for him.
